dilemma

2006-05-27T04:02:00.000-07:00

so...the very first blog....i always wanna post a blog but ....i used to thk it is stupid to write all ur feelings on the blog..but now i understand...it's hard without telling someone...i'm studying a-level now..law as 1 of my subjects, together wif maths... i don't know..there is only 1 word to describe this few months...stressful! i'm started to thk whether am i suitable to pursue what i had planned. it is a long journey...hurdle n curdle on the way...i really have no idea what to do...next week is my sem exam..which determines my uk universities application...i always wanted to enter 'prestigious' uni in uk..which i haf plannedfor years...but i'm juz afraid i can't do it! n i'm really wondering am i that type of ppl holding books all the time? can i handle the stress..not only now but in the future?these are all question marks in my head...i always thk myself as one of the most brilliant 1...always score top in the class...excelled in public exams...but honestly...i never really work hard...after i enrolled in this pre-u proggramme..i noe what is u must work hard to gain whay u want...which is kinda hard 4 me...i'm actually supposed to settle my butt in front of the maths book n keeep on studying now..nut gods know why i'm here to post a blog..i don't like to study!i'm feeling that i'm forcing myself to do what i'm not willing to do...i miss those good old days...playing n fooling aroung...create problems then settle it back again....i really miss those old days...

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dilemma